So the world didn’t end in 2012 like we were all told it was going to.
The thing is, that since the world didn’t end… we should all start acting like we dodged a bullet (even as fake and silly of a bullet it may have been) and be happy about the fact that we’re still around.
What a perfect excuse to start fresh, in a more dynamic way than we usually do each January?
I’m always saying that i’m “almost 30″ and each time i say that… it gets more and more true. I am almost 30, and i feel like i need to get a few more things figured out in my life.
Last year i grew a lot.
I started school, I worked a really great job that i loved, and i grew as a person thanks to that job and my start to my education. Both of those things have given me a little trouble as the year went on; school made me lonely and tired, and my job… well i got fired and rehired from that job, which makes for a pretty rocky environment (more on that later). All in all, 2012 was awesome (a vast improvement from 2011) and it helped me out a lot in becoming more of a grown up.
I have a good grip of how i’m going to move forward in my career, and i know who i am and what i want as a person… for my professional life at least. The rest of my life… well, in that aspect i’m sort of at an impasse.
I want to get married and have babies.
There. I said it.
I don’t think it’s that crazy of a thing for a 27 year old to say. I want to have kids (not right now) and i want to get married (sooner than babies, but also not RIGHT now) like a lot of my friends are doing.
It’s a pretty nifty club, and i don’t feel bad about wanting to be a member.
I’ve watched friends of mine meet their lobsters, get married, have babies, and basically just be happy… and i have to admit, i’m jealous.
I got asked the other day if i was at the point in my life where i wanted to meet a guy, date for a few years, get married, be married for a few years and have babies… basically if i was ready to “settle down.” I had to think about it for a second, but after i thought on it for a little while… I guess I am.
I don’t want to settle for anything, but i do want to fall in love and start a life with someone.
It’s so cheesy, and Disney love story-esque… but whatever, i feel like i’m 80% Disney princess anyway, so it’s ok.
I’m not crazy.
I don’t want to get married tomorrow or anything… but i’m really bad at dating. I don’t exactly have any idea what i’m doing.
I feel this is a common condition with southern girls. There’s a saying about us.
“Southern girls don’t date, we have boyfriends.”
This is true.
We don’t date around… our daddy’s wouldn’t like that. We have boyfriends, who we date for however long of a time, because it’s just not appropriate to be out with a boy who isn’t at least some sort of romantic partner of yours… and the only “appropriate” romantic partner to have as a southern girl is a boyfriend. (This is outdated and not true, but sometimes i feel like it holds water in my own life… but no judgement to anyone else out there.)
I suck at this.
I super suck at dating.
I like people too much, or not enough, or i’m too busy or they’re unavailable emotionally… whatever.
I just want to meet someone that likes the same stupid shit that i do, and can put up with my insane schedule.
I don’t know if this is ever really going to happen.
I’m not picky, but i know myself well enough by this point to know a few things about anyone who i get myself entangled with… and one major factor will be that they are in the restaurant industry.
I couldn’t imagine dating someone that wasn’t… i mean, what would we even talk about?
Being a part of the industry is such a defining characteristic about myself, that i don’t think i would ever feel right being with someone that hadn’t been in the same trenches as i have. It’s a weird camaraderie we formulate in our world, and outsiders have a hard time understanding it.
I told a friend of mine the other day that i don’t have a clue of what i’m doing in my life… and that’s partly true… mostly just about finding love. I date people that are wrong for me, i give up on things too quickly, and i’m really stubborn. Thank god i’m pretty…
How can someone be so smart and so dumb at the same time?